Pathways by Susan Sedon Boulet |
I do not suffer from dissosiative identity disorder however, compartmentalization is a natural part of how I function. It does pose a challenge
in areas where it creates obstacles to emotional involvement or, to engaging
all of myself in certain processes, especially magickal ones. I am actively working to overcome those
obstacles in those areas of my life.
This includes how they affect my identity and my ability to live with
integrity.
I am becoming familiar with the many different people who
live within this body…I would call it my body but, it is truly our body…it
belongs to each of us. Each of us has
desires. Each of us has only this body
to fulfill those desires, to experience that which she craves, to express who
she is and how she loves. Complete
integration does not seem to be truly possible, or ideal for that matter,
because someone would have to be sacrificed, suppressed or silenced, and we
have been doing that for far too many years already.
We have been communicating with each other and we have been
attempting to express our various desires, to find common ground and to
establish boundaries that we can agree upon when those desires are in direct
conflict with each other. It has been
important to recognize that each of us has a distinct voice and deserves to be
heard and to be allowed to express herself and her desires without being sublimated
to another.
Sometimes more than one of us desires to engage and, while
some of us can engage simultaneously if our natures are similar enough, some of
us are too different to do so and a choice must be made. We are learning to negotiate those choices so
that no one goes hungry to the point of rebellion.
Rebellion is generally counter-productive and results in
destructive behavior. We have been
working and conversing for many long nights over these past months to establish
agreement so that we can live with integrity, for each of us and, for all of
us.
I will be sharing the poetry and expressions of these various
persons/parts of me, on this blog over the next few weeks or months. For now I will simply “name” them, the mother,
the witch, the priestess, the bitch, the woman, the switch and the other.
We greet you, Merry Meet, Hail and Welcome.
Merry Meet!
ReplyDeleteThe one I have most needed to stay in touch with, in my own Committee, is the Watcher -- she who Knows Everything That Happened.
Internal communication is a great delight, and mastery of it may be a lifetime project. Sending so much love and light to you.