|Pathways by Susan Sedon Boulet|
I do not suffer from dissosiative identity disorder however, compartmentalization is a natural part of how I function. It does pose a challenge in areas where it creates obstacles to emotional involvement or, to engaging all of myself in certain processes, especially magickal ones. I am actively working to overcome those obstacles in those areas of my life. This includes how they affect my identity and my ability to live with integrity.
I am becoming familiar with the many different people who live within this body…I would call it my body but, it is truly our body…it belongs to each of us. Each of us has desires. Each of us has only this body to fulfill those desires, to experience that which she craves, to express who she is and how she loves. Complete integration does not seem to be truly possible, or ideal for that matter, because someone would have to be sacrificed, suppressed or silenced, and we have been doing that for far too many years already.
We have been communicating with each other and we have been attempting to express our various desires, to find common ground and to establish boundaries that we can agree upon when those desires are in direct conflict with each other. It has been important to recognize that each of us has a distinct voice and deserves to be heard and to be allowed to express herself and her desires without being sublimated to another.
Sometimes more than one of us desires to engage and, while some of us can engage simultaneously if our natures are similar enough, some of us are too different to do so and a choice must be made. We are learning to negotiate those choices so that no one goes hungry to the point of rebellion.
Rebellion is generally counter-productive and results in destructive behavior. We have been working and conversing for many long nights over these past months to establish agreement so that we can live with integrity, for each of us and, for all of us.
I will be sharing the poetry and expressions of these various persons/parts of me, on this blog over the next few weeks or months. For now I will simply “name” them, the mother, the witch, the priestess, the bitch, the woman, the switch and the other.
We greet you, Merry Meet, Hail and Welcome.