In my last post I made a comment about how we as a society have done so much to control or even “eliminate” the predator from the human psyche. That statement felt wrong and has been bothering me all day. I had thought to correct it through editing but, decided to let the statement remain in its imperfection and expand my thoughts on the subject of predatory nature through a new post.
I have a personal appreciation for the predatory species. I am drawn to them and feel an affinity for them as well as a great deal of respect and admiration. My living companion is feline. One of my totems is a bird of prey. And I learn from the canine species every time I am privileged to be in proximity to them.
Most human beings admire predators in the wild, or even live with the “domesticated “siblings of those wild animals. But many refuse to acknowledge the nature of predators and insist upon projecting upon them gentler and more civilized qualities as if there was something unacceptable about the predatory instincts of the wild animal. This human tendency annoys me greatly.
I believe that we as a species are also predatory by nature. There are those who have completely rejected the instincts of the predator. To be honest, I find those particular humans difficult to relate to and to be around. They have a tendency to bring out the nastier aspects of my personality. And that is where we come to the statement I had previously made. We all try to civilize the predatory instincts that we possess. We do not want to behave as wild animals (although I would still make the argument that in some ways that might actually be an improvement over some of our “civilized” behaviors).
We invent rules to make us feel less than wild animals. There are aspects to our predatory nature that need to be channeled in more socially appropriate behaviors. I will not argue for anarchy or against the rule of law but, I do not think it serves us so well to attempt to ignore or eliminate those aspects of our humanity that give us power and strength. Our will is a powerful part of our selves. Instinct is necessary for survival even in the modern world. The wild inside of us is a great source of vitality and life-force.
I have a wild nature and I have strong instincts. I find myself driven to explore those parts of myself. I desire to engage with the predatory nature of others because my instincts tell me that through such interaction I may come to know my own predatory nature. But I also feel the need to explore the polarity of the prey. I need to experience both sides of the relationship.
Hunger, lust and the drive to express what it is to be alive, these are strong instincts and I will not try to tame them.